Could be Cancer

I am 17.

I went to the doctor last week, and I have dysplastic cells on the back of my head.

For those of you that don't know what that is, it basically means that I have skipped the stage that moles could be potentially cancerous...

If left unchecked, I WILL have cancer.

I'm a little scared, because I will possibly have to have surgery. They do not know if this means I will develop cancer later in life, so they'll have to keep an eye on it for the rest of my life.

Not counting my parents, I am only aware that 3 people know this: my boyfriend and 2 of my friends. They are much more worried than I am, though; or at least don't hide it.

The strange thing is, part of me hopes I get cancer.

I feel so messed up for it, but its there, and I could never actually tell anyone this, because I feel so bad thinking it.

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  • Well, do you feel guilty or overwhelmed by things in your life? If so, work through it and take care of yourself. If the cancer does develop, you'll wish you had. Do research and talk with your doctor. Fight it! Fight it now!

  • OP: it's not for the attention. I hate calling attention to myself. I honestly have no clue why.

  • Why do you want the cancer, for the attention? Lots of people feel that way.

    Just do what you doctor says. And do your own research. Including a diet that boosts your immunity and general health. It'll improve you chances.

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