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Husband found out about my sexual past
I don't know what to do. I've been married for eight and a half years and I have two beautiful kids. My marriage is not great but it hasn't been that bad either.
A few days ago, my husband found a piece of paper related to my sexual past. It affected him very much because he didn't really know much about it. He has been depressed and we really don't know how to handle the situation.
I understand his shock because I have never been a party girl. He says he never expected me to have done some of the things I did.
I blame my background a little bit for having had the desire of certain experiences. I was born in Taiwan, but my family moved to Argentina before I was five. Growing up in a country where my physical features were very different from the rest was not easy. I was always shy and had very low self-esteem. My parents were very strict and I helped them with a store we had since I was little.
I had my first and only Argentinian boyfriend when I was 20 which is older than the average first timer. I was always studying and working. I had ** with him out of curiosity which was a mistake. I moved to the US a few years later and once here, I felt free in many ways. I didn't have my parents breathing on my neck all the time (although I lived with an aunt who was also strict, but not as much), I started driving by myself, and I didn't know anybody. I met someone and dated him for a while. Although I wasn't sure about having ** with him (because of my conservative principles), it was easier to go for it than the first time just because I knew I wasn't a virgin anymore. After several months, we broke up and I started dating another person. The same thing happened with him.
After breaking up with him, I thought about the fact that each of them was from a different nationality. I also started feeling like maybe true love didn't exist. Something happened at that point in my life that made me want to experiment. I was still a very responsible student and working hard to pay for college. My aunt didn't let me get home after 12 at night, but I managed to find excuses and the time to be out when I wanted.
I had ** with my salsa dance teacher, with a guy I met while working at a perfume stand in a mall (he worked in a store nearby), and with a guy I met while working at a chiropractor's office (he also worked nearby). I wasn't really looking for a long-term relationship, although I was kind of hoping for one. I was driven by a twisted desire to try out new things. I wanted to see how far I could go and how much I could be "appreciated". I was a fool, I know now. I kept trying to compare guys from different countries. I met a guy from India and then another from Korea and I had ** with them too (separately). I made a list with all their names and nationalities to stupidly keep track of my escapades. All this happened in a period of about two years.
Finally I met my now husband. We worked in the same place and we started dating. From the beginning I felt like he could be the one. After a few months, I moved in with him. I never gave him details of my past, although he knew he wasn't my first. He did tell me once that he was jealous of whoever was with me before him. I knew then that I had to keep my past a secret for our own good.
Well, a few days ago he was moving some old boxes and he found some of my things from college. I had completely forgotten about the paper with "the" list. He knew immediately what it was about because he recognized a couple of names. When he told me, he was crying. He asked me why I didn't tell him before and I tried to explain that he had mentioned that he was jealous of my past and that I didn't want him to feel worse if I gave him details.
Needless to say, it has been rough since then. He keeps asking me a lot of questions about my ** life before him and I made the mistake of answering a few when he started asking them. He says that no one would think I acted like that and I understand because I know I've always looked like a very nerdy, shy and boring person.
He says he can't stop seeing me in his mind having ** with all those guys. In his own words, he pictures me flirting with them, saying yes to their offer of having **, blowing them, spreading my legs and moaning like a ** for them. Sometimes I don't know what to answer because I feel like he is right. I acted like a ** with at least five of them because I wasn't expecting anything but enjoying being used.
I would hate if my marriage ends because of something that happened years ago. I should've never made that list. Much less keep it. :(
I would divorce this shameless adulteress and start a afresh even if I've to live alone in a cave . She ** with strangers and thoroughly enjoyed then never once ask his husband for forgiveness or even saying sorry . I don't think she has any guilt or even cried for her past . I'll kick her out of my life if I were her husband .
She didn't cheat on him, fool!! He's upset, because he found out about her sexual history, of which transpired, before she started dating him.
So therefore, she has nothing to feel sorry about!! It's him that has the problem, not her!!
He's upset because she more than likely lied to him about her past. Stop defending awful women.
** you! He could have not chose to be with her in the first place if she was honest. Nothing wrong with him having preferences - just because you want to justify being a ** don’t ** it off on others.
So you'd kick a girl out for her past, but the next girl has to accept your nasty used up past?
You were obviously a morally loose woman before your marriage and he's always imagining you may not be able to guard your sexual urges and starts banging with another dance teacher maybe the male masseur who knows when he's away .
You also seems not to have any regrets over your past sexual encounters . So I wouldn't be surprised you'll be ** the black plumber one day should your husband goes away for a business or work trip .
Just because she's experimented sexually in her past, before meeting her now husband, doesn't mean she's going to cheat on him!! It's natural to experiment!! When a guy is a **, he's a stud. When a woman sleeps around, she's a **!! ** society!!!
"Just because she's experimented sexually in her past, before meeting her now husband, doesn't mean she's going to cheat on him!!"
Yes it does. You can turn a housewife into a ** but you can never turn a ** into a housewife.
"It's natural to experiment!!"
Then make sure your partner is aware of your past experiments. And no, your past stops being "none of his business" the moment you call yourselves partners/family/couple/etc.
As for studs, being a stud takes a lot of work, self-improvement and even talent. Not many men can achieve it. Being a ** takes no effort, all a woman needs to do for that is spread her legs. Nearly any woman can achieve with little to no effort.
Hahaha, well said brother
It absolutely does mean she will cheat on him. Once a cheater, always a cheater. Once a liar, always a liar.
She sowed her wild oats before marriage. Did she say she cheated? No. Plenty of men sleep around but are loyal once they marry. Why would it be didferent for women?
Dude from Cali
"She sowed her wild oats before marriage" And what does hubby get? Sloppy seconds and a prudish wife in bed. No thanks.
If only women would understand that last statement maybe we wouldn’t have so many whores ** around
Look. The issue is less that you had several partners before or played but rather that you misrepresented to him what you were so you could secure his good faith commitment even though it was a potential deal breaker. And then also effectively lied by omission to him about it for years and even then told him half truths (yes, us men are clueless at times but even we can pick up when we're not being given the full story once the horse has bolted).
In a commercial transaction even a court could regard such behaviour as having been in bad faith and award damages to the other. This isn't such a thing but you can frame it with that thinking and the fact you've made him feel like a he's been a fool for years. You have ** easily to other men who he now thinks you regarded or desired more than you ever did him.
He'll also ask himself what else have you hidden from him even if there is truly nothing else.
For ** sake, is anyone going to willingly reveal their sexually past, to a prospective future partner?! I think not and why should they?! It's their business, no one else's!! So stop with your old fashioned attitudes, it's the 21st Century, not the ** 16th Century
Yep, you dumb broads will never understand that you lose all trust when you lie to your men.
I bet you have HIV
Hopefully the girls in the next generation understand the value of being a virgin at marriage
Yet men are dumping girls/women for being a virgin.
Good luck on you finding a decent man. You sound like a typical piece of urban trash.
Sad. I hope you never trick someone into marrying you. Most decent people want someone truthful who has not bedded the whole village.
And you're the reason why most marriages and relationships fail these days with your 21st century mindset. I hope you never get married because I feel sorry for them with your messed up morals. People like you deserve to be alone.
You kept track! Something wrong with your Memory?
Tell yes i was young and dumb at one point in my life but i am not. You didn't meet her honey you met me and if me is not good enough for you than you better find another me.
I think most men would find another.
It probably wasn't a great idea to keep a list, but it's his jealousy issue. Reassure him you love and and enjoy him... You obviously chose him over any one else! Seems like he might also need reminded that as a woman it's your right to experiment and explore in any way you want. You haven't done anything wrong, so don't let him ** shame you. Men who enjoy their sexual freedom wouldn't be begrudged it, and you shouldn't be either.
What a load of **. It's not a jealousy issue...it's a lie. She made herself out to be someone she wasn't and hid it from him. She robbed him of his choice to be with someone who's done those things.
** idiot!!! He's jealous because she was sexually liberated before dating him and he didn't have the courage to be, because he was afraid of **!!
Nope, she lied. Why are you so upset about two people you don't know? This story must hit pretty close to home for you huh?
So it's ok to be a **? Is that what you're saying? News flash hun, most men don't want used goods.
Amen to that!
Oh pleased spare us the whole "she chose you" garbage. I hate it when people say that. Sometimes that ** isn't enough.
So, it's okay for a woman to accept a mans past?
Lying and sleeping around are both morally wrong.
He needs to move past this. To a large degree, this is on him. There is no need for you to feel guilty for who you slept with in your past. You didn't cheat and he has a past too. Sometimes when people snoop, they sort of get what they get if they find something they shouldn't. Sure in hindsight, the list should have never been created. Yes, it's sad that he is depressed. But he is the one making himself crazy by dwelling on it and continuing to ask questions. Who you slept with in the past shouldn't have any effect on your future. He needs to go speak with a therapist now for his depression and possibly you guys both go to a marriage counselor and figure this out before it destroys your relationship.
I agree :)
I guarantee she lied about her past, which is the problem. You moronic women will never understand that. What about if you slept with someone with HIV? That wouldn't affect the future? GFY
How much did she charge?
You can't change the past so it leads to only one question: NOW WHAT?
Unless she starts acting like a ** for him in the sack, divorce!
I keep a list too...I'm at 1145.
Lol...you wish, **
Never keep your pass on paper it alway come back and bite you in the **,now your husband now wonder about you now if you will cheat on him, never keep record or a diary, thing you don't won't people to read, now the time to tel him the truth if you don't he will leave you for sure, that left up to you not me,
Thanks for the great advice Captain Obvious
I don't think its your fault that he found the list..each of us has a past.It sounds like he is quite insecure and your initial decision to keep the guys from him was reasonable-after all you are not a nun or saint let alone a certified virgin.He should just learn to accept you for you past and all.He may need counseling.
I have little kids with an ex girlfriend.She was not a virgin when I met her 5 years ago and she likes older men.She told me she had been quite a few 4 or so.When she asked me how many I had been with,I told her 5.In actual sense,I had been with 351 women at the time.Since her and I broke up over a year ago,I have been with 10.I would have shocked her to tell the truth.I did not lie to her;I just withheld the information for her own sanity.I totally understand what you are saying.I compared races,nationalities,sizes etc.I have lists here and there and hope no one finds it in one of my many boxes.I wish you the best.
I agree x
The moral of this whole thing is simple. Save ** for marriage. America is ** (both literally and metaphorically) because we quit listening to God's and grandma's truths on this matter, and now look where it has gotten us. I'll lay it out for you clearly. If your marriage does stay together, it will never be the same. You have broken your husbands heart and trust with your secrets (which are lies, by the way, and yes, he deserved to know all this before you two walked the altar. Don't believe me? Think about why you even kept it from him in the first pla ce. It was because it had the ability to permanently alter your relationship negatively, which has now still finally surfaced, regardless of your trying to hide it, and now he is stuck with you and this relationship-damaging monster.) If you two wind up ending the marriage, this will still be a point in your life that you will never be able to look back on without regret. Let this be a lesson to anyone else planning on having premarital **. You will officially doom your future marriage in some way, shape, or form if you go through with it...PERIOD!!!!
Well said!
Very true.
Very well put, even though we must forgive, our heart will never have the same love for someone who crushed our world, At best I would be so open about anything he asked, and needed. never tell a lie to cover another lie. my wife just did this now I have nowhere to go with it. I have had to beg for answers, and its as bad as the issue. If anyone cares at all. stay true to the one you love...........
If he ever asked which one of your boxes is the biggest, don't tell him.