Try an hurt me. Test me PLEASE. I WANT TO FEEL ALIVE AGAIN.
Everyday I WISH someone would say or do something to provoke me. It's been about 9 years since my last street fight. After kids i stopped the partying and gave up my friends to be a responsible adult....Im about average in size 5'10 190lbs an as long back as I can remember I've always been in fist fights and have won ALL except one, dude was skinny an got the first shot in...then ran..I consider that a loss.....I love boxing and if it wasn't for me wasting my younger years partying I would of pursued it. I've been in close to 30 fights. I hardly ever started any of them. I just never take s*** from anyone. When I'm fighting people say I'm smiling the entire time. And for some strange reason it's like in slow motion, I can see their punches coming. My timing is uncanny. I've had MANY knockouts but I LOVE a good scrap. Anyway, there isn't a day that goes by that I wish for a scenario in which I'm forced to physically beat the f*** out of someone. I miss the adrenaline. I miss the way people would talk of me to others. I miss the way I felt when I would go out and someone thought they could take me. I miss being tested. Nothing has EVER made me feel more ALIVE. I thought one day I'd grow out of this feeling. But I'm 36 now and it hasn't. Does anyone else have these tendencies? Or is something wrong with me? I grew up an Air Force brat and have never been abused. I just feel ALIVE when I fight.