I feel alone like no one is here. Before me and my mom were closer now everything is different. She has moved on I guess she's been alone since my so called dad left. Now she's different she always says that we are best friends but now I just want to get away from her and I don't think it's because I'm going through a stage of daughters hating mothers because no matter what she is the women who gave birth to me and raised me as a single parent. But now there's a wedge between us I don't know why. Then I really don't have friends to actually talk to I have no life I'm such a useless person I cry for the stupidest things. Never once been kissed or known if someone has a crush on me and I'm done I can't handle this I guess I'm going through depression but I feel like the world gave up on me because for sure little by little I'm giving up on myself and it hurts I guess some people think this is stupid because I'm young and got my whole life ahead of me but I keep thinking what life? I'm hopeless there is no one here to trust and I feel so damm lonely I cry myself to sleep every night I am not pretty and certainly am fat I doubt that I'll ever be loved I gues that is why now I just see t.v. and try to forget about the world I live in and I try a lot to not give up but I'm sick of trying I am weak yes I have been through a lot but that doesn't make me stronger but makes me weaker. A lot of people should just say your stupid get off your lazy ass and do something be different but I can't. You know how people say every one who is born has a reason why they are here in the world but I don't see my reason here I sometimes wish I wasn't born its funny because this year was supposed to be different for me now that I'm finally 16 but my birthday I spent it alone no cake special food just for me or even spend time with my family I guess I expected to much for my 16 th year of life. But this time I feel alone no one around me.