I want to Marry my Best Friend(s)
Im a girl and I've always been choosy with my friends because i would get teased for being a tomboy. I've only recently realized that because of that, I'm initially cold and even hostile towards another person before gradually showing my warm side over time. Every year or so I have a new best friend. [i still remain friends with the last ones we're just not as close] Anyway, I only have 1 Female best friend that I've known since kindergarden. Im 20. All my other "Best friends" have been males. I would do everything with whoever my current best friend was. Im used to people wanting to be my friend just because i seem uninterested in them while having a great time with others. However, since I'm so available to them due to my limited amount of friends [not to mention I'm considerably attractive] they start to pry on my love life [what BF doesn't?]. I tell them that I want to skip the pregnancies and heartbreaks and just wait for a guy that I feel I simply can't live without. Then comes the question... Don't you get h****?? [Of Course!] Are you gay!?! [No!] After a heart to heart or two... the friendship turns into this awkward more than friends but not officially lovers type thing and eventually they find a girl friend [to satisfy their needs] and brag about her while still doing BRO-like things with me. Im tired of being the available down to earth tomboy that sells real estate in the friend zone but i just can't take the leap from virgin to lover without someone willing to legitimately love me. Should I keep waiting? If so, how do i cope?