Cheating wife

I'm a white married woman, 65, and I am cheating with a black man 43. First, we meet, we dance, he mays me laugh, we do stupid things, we go places … my husband would never learn to dance, he so straight laced, and if I get ** he doesn''t laugh at it, only looks annoyed....he's nice, he's always bringing flowers, so proper, etc. Even when we do go out, he doesn't show a lot of affection in public....like feel my **, playful ** things around the house. I tried, because I was truly **, to see if I could get him to ** me, like old days, a quickie. He went berserk, so to speak, on how I was so nasty. ** is always the same, very little forplay, always the same position, from behind. Always, so lackluster, I get no feeling he wants to ** me....says little. If I try to push him in to different positions, try anytype of oral, its like its nasty. My black lover is always **, plays with my **, pinches my ** and we hug and kiss in public were we go. I always feel like he would love to ** me, he desires me, he wants. ** is always different. Sometimes he is so oral I **, his actual ** can be sweet, lovable, very verbal sweet things; then sometimes he just takes me, yanks my ** down. There is alawys foreplay, but mainly I always feel like he wants me, sometimes he's verbal using what some would call nasty terms, but it makes ** so awesome; always in a number of positions and yes, I love it too, when he gets a little rough. I just always feel like he wants me, or loves me, he explores my **, my **, and he even took and takes me in the **. He just makes my husband feel like a weak wimp, always so timid with me, as if I was his china doll. He's not not the alleged huge **, but he always seem so virile, and lasting. ** with my husband, who never got in to oral, was always quick, like let's get it overwith. And, I found sucking ** awesome, I've never been able to do much for hold my husbands or explore ,