I've been in love with my best friend
I've been in love with my best friend for the past year. He recently broke up with his girlfriend of two years and it came out one lonely night that he had had some very non-platonic feelings for me for a very long time. We've recently started dating, and of course, at first everything was wonderful...but seeds of doubt have begun to surface.
He says I'm the most beautiful girl he's ever met, that he loved me for half a decade, that I'm amazing-all that jazz. But he just seems so miserable most of the time, because of the ex. While I don't expect him to up and forget about her, she was a major part of his life, and it hasn't been too long since the break. I want him to hate her, I really want him to curse her name, and not just because he thinks that's what I want. I think he regrets me sometimes...which kind of makes me want to die.
I told him I never wanted to be a rebound, he's too important to me. And I truly hope he meant it when he said I wasn't going to be, we're each other's closest friends, and I never wanted to f*** with that...so why does it seem like we might have made a terrible mistake?