I poisioned myself
All of my life I have harmed myself in all kinds of ways and covered it up by saying I fell, I was sick, I had an accident, I was in a fight or some other dumb reason that I made up. It started when I was about 6 or 7 I really don't remember, it went off and on into my 20's when I had a break down after stabbing myself and saying I was attacked and making it look like someone tried to rape me. I committed myself into a hospital for help and was in therapy for over a year and it really helped.
However about 3 years ago in a bad marriage I started injecting draino and windex in my leg. I have never admitted this to anyone, it put me in the hospital and I almost lost my leg because of it and it has caused a lot of damage. I have not done it since but it haunts me. I do not want to do it again and I know I won't because it scared me so much at how badly I hurt myself, but it still haunts me that I have been so emotionally f***** up to do that to myself and can't tell anyone. I heard about these sites to vent and tell the truth so this is me venting. I am so deeply ashamed and horrified by what I have done. I am in my 30's and want to be happy and free of this demon.