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Bullimia.
I'm a bullimic and i hate it so much. Everyday i fight with myself to prevent my binge/purge episodes but lose every day. I'm pathetic and weak and can't even stand up to my self. I just want to be sane and be able to eat without having to eat everything i see and without worrying about my weight. I'm too scared to tell anyone because everyone will judge me but i'm dying for help. I don't know what to do.
You are not pathetic and weak, you are fighting an addiction. Bulimia is a disease. And it's not just about eating normal or not eating. It's about rebuilding a healthy relationship with food, your mind and your body image. You have taken a brave step and have admitted that you have a problem and need help. That's huge, acknowledge that. Never be scared to ask for help. It may be a difficult thing to reach out, but once you do a huge weight will be lifted and you can really begin the process to heal yourself and live your life and truly enjoy food and love yourself just the way you are. You deserve that! Healing will be a day to day process, so accept that. But you can do this. Maybe start with looking online for help if you don't want to go to your doctor yet. Here's a site to look into: http://www.eatingdisorderhope.com/information/bulimia