I'm too submissive
I'm a 23 year old male college student, and i am currently living with my boyfriend who has an apartment. we have been dating since high school, but we have been keeping it secret since my family is catholic and his parents promised to keep it secret because of my family. well as to why i'm posting this, i really love him, and i want to be with him longer, but he's very dominant and gets very aggressive and likes to try out different things constantly. a few weeks ago he had rope and tied me up and started having s** with me, i won't deny that i didn't mind it, but still, he got very aggressive and as a result i got rope burns on my arms and stomach from him. but recently he wanted to try something that i have only heard about but never seen before. he came back from work and we watched some Tv and an ad for Trojan cam on and he started rubbing up against me, i looked at him and he was smiling at me and i saw he was already aroused, so regardless of my attempts to tell him i didn't want to do it we ended up doing it. so he tells me he wants to go in the shower and get it on, so i walk in their and we strip down and step in, he turns on the shower and presses me against the wall and starts to grope me and forcible stick his tongue down my throat all while the shower is drenching our heads, then i felt the water stop hitting my head and a sharp pain in my butt. the details are still a bit painful, but regardless, he's done so many things to me, but he's also been there for me when i needed him and as a result i'm just submissive to what ever he wants, most people would say i'm the women of our relationship. so anyway, i feel embarrassed and ashamed of this "relationship" we have, i love him, and we've been through a lot, but i feel like he doesn't see me as a person anymore, but more like a thing to abuse for s** and comfort, and i don't want that, so i guess the question is…what should i do?