I messed everything up.
I officially started dating a guy yesterday. We've been hanging out for about 1.5 months. The thing is that throughout this time I have had a crush on his roommate. His roommate always seemed to flirt with me but after a while I just assumed that's how he naturally was and he wasn't really meaning anything by it. Tonight I find out he likes me and I would much rather be with him but I feel like I need to give me and this current guy a decent shot. The roommate is telling me to forget about it, but I think that's because he's worried about what my boyfriend would do to him.
And to top everything off after I realized the mistake I made with who I'm with I decided I wanted to mess things up even more so I made out with a guy at a party last night. I'm being self destructive because I'm p***** about my decisions. I want to be with the roommate but that's nearly impossible now and it's killing me.