I just want to live happily with you.
I feeling tired of this life.I just want to rest, just shut my eye. I feel that I am the only one that is being misunderstood. I love my wife so much. Everyday I tried to be the best husband that I can. I try to show her happiness and love. I am not perfect but I am trying to live the way that she want me to be.
But why is there such negativity? Can she just forgive me for what I am. I feel like killing myself just to end this pain. Why just can't she trust me? Why must she demoralize and push negative things to me. Where does she want this to go? Why does she want me to hate her? Does she know that I would die for her?
I don't know how long my heart will hold on. Every single beat hurts so much. Even when things cool down, I dread the bad times. I can't live like this. I forgive her and I love her so much. I am just scared that I might die holding on and I can't take care of her anymore. I pray with all my heart that God will protect and love her. I just wish she would just stop all off the fault finding and live this life with me happily because life is short and I don't want to fill it with hatred. I love you...