I need to vent
I AM AN UGLY PERSON. MY WHOLE BODY IS COVERED IN A THICK DARK LAYER OF F****** HAIR. MY SKIN IS F****** DISGUSTING, COVERED IN BRUISES AND IT IS DARK. MY FEET LOOK LIKE DONALD DUCKS FEET. I LOOK LIKE A F****** WOOKIE. MY FEET ARE A SIZE 11 IN WOMENS. I 5'10 AND I AM F****** FAT. MY HAIR LOOKS LIKE AN UNTAMED ANIMAL. AND I HAVE A NOSE THE SIZE OF A POTATO. I AM F****** UGLY. BUT F*** ALL OF YOU PEOPLE. I WILL DIE ALONE, SO F*** EVERYTHING ANYWAYS. i am the ugly girl inside and out who will never receive love. so i'll continue to do good in school, save the lives of strangers when i become and doctor. I will watch everyone live a happy life. I will go to church regularly, as i have been doing. I will try to be satisfied with life even though i know i wont. Because there is this horrible punishment i am going to deal with the rest of my life. because i will never be good enough. i'll smile like i regularly do, i'll laugh and congratulate people on their happiness, but at the end of the day i know i will be sad and lonely. I'll always long for that special someone, like a stupid girl i'll dream. and except my punishment for being an ugly person. God made me this way so i'll suffer for all the bad things i have done. I'll continuing suffering everyday as i await my death. I hope i don't live long either. I feel bad for the people who have to deal with me. why was i brought to this earth? why the useless me was allowed to live instead of people who actually enjoy life?