Hurting and Confused
I married a great guy my first boyfriend who i liked since i was 16 we were friends dated at 18 and ended up getting married at 21. I thought i was in love and we developed something very deep. i am now 23 and i love my husband to death.
Then i started to talk to this other guy, i treat all my guy friends like friends nothing more. I dont cheat. I am a gamer so i make guy friends a lot. Problem is i started to develop feelings for this friends because he loves me. Even though he knew i was taken. Problem is I have developed strong feelings for this other guy.
I thought i knew what love was until i met this new guy i believe my feelings to be stronger with this guy then my own husband. I feel so bad and im hurting. I have not cheated but this new guy knows how i feel about him, and knows i cant be with him.
Im not sure if im doing the right or wrong thing. But i love them both. And im confused so, and hurting so much for this guy. We want to be friends but problem is we care for each other so much we know we need to stop these feelings. IT HURTS SO MUCH. Im getting depressed knowing hes trying to not love me and i care for him so much. I LOVE MY HUSBAND but i believe i never truly loved my husband. And i cant break it off with him because i feel like a huge betrayal. I will be loyal but i feel like im sacrificing my happiness. But in the same time i feel its worth it so my husband can be happy. But im hurting. Do you think what im doing is right or wrong? Please help me. And nothing rude because i am so confused.