I'm Catfishing someone and I don't know what I should do
I've been catfishing this girl... For those of you who don't know, catfishing is when you pretend to be someone you're not online. I'm a girl, and I've been catfishing this girl for a little over a year... We met on Minecraft (yes I know that's weird but we did) she lives in another state. We're both in the USA. I fell in love with her and she says she's fallen in love with me and we've been together for almost 10 months. We Skype all the time and she uses her camera and I know she's who she says she is but I've never used my camera (doesn't work to be honest) and I've only sent her a few pictures of some random chick I found online... She's so sweet and trusting and I feel pathetic for doing this and I've betrayed her trust .-. I don't know what to do. I know I need to tell her eventually but I don't know when or how and it's tearing me apart inside. I don't even want to know how she'll feel when I tell her the truth... I know what I'm doing is wrong. In my defense, I posted the first picture of the random girl saying that I loved the hair... But she assumed it was me so I just went with it and found more pictures that looked like that girl... I just needed to confess this somewhere .-. I wish I knew what to do... Please help. By the way, me and her have discussed moving in together and having a future and I really do love her but I'm terrified to lose her. I know I probably will when I finally tell her, and I understand why and I'll respect it but it's going to hurt so badly and I don't know I'm hoping someone could help me figure out a way to tell her... I've been completely honest with her about everything, aside from what I really look like... It doesn't help that I'm honestly pretty ugly. I wish I was just honest from the start... I've considered suicide many times but I know that's a cowardly way out and it would leave her here alone and she wouldn't know the truth. Honestly I'd leave her a message explaining who I was, with a picture of me, and tell her I was sorry. Then I'd end it... BUT I've decided against that and I think she deserves to know the truth from me.