Lonely... Hard to push through life
I am 14, male, and I am different from other guys my age. They are all interested in s** and b******* and stuff but I'm more interested in cuddling and stroking a girls hair and leaning my head on their shoulder... But the girl I like thinks of me as a friend and its mentally killing me! I feel like I am depressed because it's gotten to the point that when I think of her, I get sad not happy. My mom is a doctor and I think I should definitely talk to her, but I just really don't feel like I could. I need help and I need her to love me back! Ugh life is painful, just lying awake at night imagining scenarios of me and her, then realizing it's never going to work. I have seriously considered killing myself, but never tried it.