Lonely... Hard to push through life

I am 14, male, and I am different from other guys my age. They are all interested in s** and b******* and stuff but I'm more interested in cuddling and stroking a girls hair and leaning my head on their shoulder... But the girl I like thinks of me as a friend and its mentally killing me! I feel like I am depressed because it's gotten to the point that when I think of her, I get sad not happy. My mom is a doctor and I think I should definitely talk to her, but I just really don't feel like I could. I need help and I need her to love me back! Ugh life is painful, just lying awake at night imagining scenarios of me and her, then realizing it's never going to work. I have seriously considered killing myself, but never tried it.


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  • Such a sweetheart! Seriously, don't change. So many males, especially in your generation, are such pigs. It's so refreshing to hear someone of your age thinking that way. You sound like you have a gentle kind soul. It's so incredibly sad how cruel this world is to people with hearts. I completely understand what you are saying though... I had a crush on someone just like that at a point in my life. It overtook me. I just wanted to love them and care for them. But they never reciprocated. They just took everything. Listen to me: it may not seem like it, but YOU DESERVE BETTER. If that girl doesn't appreciate you, I promise that there is someone else out there that will. There are 7 billion people in this world. That girl is not special. She is not the only one. There is someone out there who will love you just as much as you do them. Please have hope and hang in there. I was in the same exact place that you are in, and by realizing this, I was finally able to free myself from this person and the horrible darkness from those feelings. Now, I'm not going to lie. It isn't easy, but you are stronger than you think. You can get through this. And by getting through this you will be a better person for it. Although I'm just a stranger and I don't know you, I believe in you. Just know that if you ever feel that the darkness becomes too much, people do indeed care. People feel just the same as you do. You are not alone. I wish you the best, dearest fellow stranger.

  • I'm in the same boat as you & all about respect for girls. If it wasn't for my mom, I'd kill myself too. Upset how lonely my life is, never given a chance. And I think about myself as a kid or when I was 1 (after seeing a vid of myself), I just shake my head and feel sorry for what my life become & everything else. My child self deserved so much more.

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