I believe in God & everything, I'm just not as religious & haven't gone to church since I was like 10. My whole life I feel like WHAT IF there's no heaven? What if when you die, you live in darkness forever? That scares me every day that I think about it. At least when you sleep, you dream. Even if it's not a dream that you like and/or you dream about someone you hate, at least it's something. Even to this day, I wish that when I die, I could live/dream a life with someone that I do like dreaming about.