I need some guidance
I'm an 18 year old girl. I live in a toxic environment. A narcissistic and incredi selfish mom, a stepdad that couldn't give two s**** about me, and two half younger brothers, along with one older brother. I've pretty much become the parent for the two younger brothers, but they have no respect for me sinde their stepdad tells them things to go against me. It's a frustrating situation because I hate seeing how neglectful my parents are to my younger brothers, the same way they were to me and my older brother. They take advantage of me, and purposely keep me awah from opportunities so I can take care of their children... I don't know what to do. There's no money for college (I have a job for that now) and I was too busy looking after my brothers to take the placement test so I feel screwed right now. My parents are basically saying F you to me, and they act even worse to my older brother. My older brother suggested to me today for us to move in with some of his friends, but we would have to share a room and all of our money would go to living there. I would have to work all the time just to live somewhere I wouldn't even be in half of the time. It makes no sense to me.. I want to find a companion to hike the world with, but even that is difficult. Does anyone here have experience with that that could give me tips? Any advice at all? I need to leave here.