Hello everyone whos reading this. I have been reading other stories and some people have inspired me to write my story. Im not sure if this will help me , but I have no one else to tell...
Since I started dating my partner I have lost all my friends and most family. I love him unconditionally. I have made a mistake in the past many years ago. Since i came clean he has been really rough with me.
He didnt leave, he chose to stay with me and make my life h***. It started with a slap when he draw blood out my lip. It wasnt his fault. It is never his fault. Its either me p****** him of or i led us to this. Sometimes when he is rageing he strangles me and i struggle to breathe. Sometimes he just "pushes" me. I have bruises all over my body. I have to lie that strangle bruises are love bites. Whenever we fight , mainly its just me listening. I get thrown out the house. One time i told him i will call the police , he wanted to traumatise me before i go. He threatens to take our child away, and if legally he cant, then he will run the country. He would rather kill me than see me happy. I cry all the time. I am loosing hair. I feel like in last 3 months i have lost about half of my hair. I barely manage to eat once a day, im loosing weight rapidly. I feel our child is not happy, violent in nursery. I dont want to leave him because i love him too much, but i feel like i am not happy at all. I cry more than i smile. I dont want my child to have a broken home. I dont know whats best for us