I met my girlfriend 8 years ago after being broken hearted more times than I could count and living alone in an alcoholic stupor. She is 13 years older than I am and I have never found her physically atractive. I do love her I feel like she is my best friend and we have always gotten along great. The catch is she has a daughter who is 11 years younger than me. I met her when she was in high school and have always thought she was attractive. For years that was as far as it ever went I've always been here for her and we have always at least been friends. The last 2 years or so I started noticing feelings things that I wasn't sure what they meant. She isn't classically pretty but to me she is the most beautiful girl in the world. We get along great and the way she makes me feel has developed into the most intense love I have ever felt for any one ever. I adore this girl and do not get me wrong altho I think s** with her would be amazing that is not the focus of or for my affection. She will never think of me in the same way and I can't do it say anything to express this love. It is the most hopeless and lost and depressing and suicidal experience I have ever been through. I cherish every second spent with her and I am only happy when she is here. She lives out of town and works in the mountains my heart is aching that I cannot even text her with any sort of regularity and I worry about her surrounded by foreign strangers and grizzly bears with no way to contact us. Even still she tells me good morning and says hi on lunch break and says goodnight I love you even though the messages won't send for sometimes a whole day. Anyway I know I could die a happy man if I could just hold her hand. I love you sweetheart even I'm you will never know how much I die every time you drive away. Please be happy and safe and know I will always be here for you. I love you so very much..