I want to become very fat
I don't know why, but lately I've wanted to gain weight so badly. All I can think about is eating and being fed. I've always been very small and been very healthy in the way I eat. Lately, however, I've been eating badly and gained at least 15 pounds. It almost scares me how much I like how tight my clothes are becoming and the extra fat that is around my tummy. I dream that I will gain more and more and have to keep buying bigger and bigger clothes.
I have this new fantasy that I will find someone that will feed me and make me bigger and bigger. I want huge b****** and a tummy that hangs over my pants. I want my thighs to rub together when I walk. I've never thought this way before, and I'm almost becoming obsessed with getting fatter and fatter.
I don't know what to do and why I feel this way. I keep forcing myself to gain weight and pretending to hate it. I can't help but daydream about how good it will feel when I'm 200, maybe even 300 pounds. I know this isn't normal, but I can't stop.