My boyfriend is a major **.

I am mad, and not just a little mad. FULL. BLOWN. **. I am in a relationship with the most demanding, degrading, disrespectful, dishonest person on the planet, & i am in love with him...I am casually going about my day when I get a phone call from HIM. I answer the phone and we chat for a second as i think to myself "how sweet he called to check in" NOPE he calls so he can get me to talk dirty to him. And when I don't because I have other employees working near by he gets mad. "I called so I could have you talk dirty to me" He then starts barking orders about when I get home I need to get ready for him throwing out all this nasty "foreplay" he wants to do. Like, really? I tell you my day has been stressful and you seem to think I need to go home and cater to your idiotic idea of what gets me off? ** is a chore with him, Its not fun, its not enjoyable, its whatever he wants. how he wants it when he wants it and I get to feel either like a ** or an embarrassment/disappointment by the time hes finished. I love him but I hate when he tries to be ** or gets all ** and gross. It makes me want to leave whenever he acts like that. I personally dont like ** that much anymore and him guilting me or harrassing me into it doesnt help. Im ** tired of it, am I a grilfriend? Or a money making blowup doll? ** YOU!!!! ** YOU ** YOU ** YOU I ** HATE YOU YOU PIECE OF ** FUUUUUCK YOU!!!!! ** I JUST WANT TO YELL I CANT ** HANDLE HOLDING EVERYTHING IN ANYMORE!