I love my kids and I'm good with them, but I hate motherhood. I hate relying on my husband financially and strangers blaming me for my autistic son not progressing according to the child experts' schedule. I'm doing my best and they can f*** off. Despite knowing that, I still feel badly. I feel like a failure. Phew. Thanks for letting me vent/whine. My advice to you out there is don't have children. At the end of the day, motherhood sucks. People never blame the father.