I have a missus. I also have a burning desire to suck c***. So every now and then when I've been drinking, I jump on the app, find a local guy, meet up with him and blow him until he c***. Generally we don't speak, I suck him off and he goes. Sometimes they will return the favour but if not that's ok, I'll just head back and m********* in the shower.
I only crave c*** when I'm drunk. I have no desire to have s** with a man, I simply love the feeling of hard c*** in my mouth and equally being sucked off while I w*** him. The random hookups are intense especially when no words are spoken.
I've met with maybe 15 guys and can honestly say I've made each of them blow within a couple of minutes. I enjoy it. I enjoy being in control.