I'm standing in my kitchen baking cookies right now. I'm just so down. I've been trying to get my small business off the ground and my husband has been on the fence about whether or not he is supportive? There are many days when he fills me with despair. He's so negative about the entire thing. I've been working 16+ hours a day to get new contracts, manage inventory, orders, shipments, etc... He keeps saying I need to get a real job like he has, because I don't make enough. Well, I'm sorry I can't compete with a six figure salary when my business is only a few months old. Inventory limits my growth; I don't have enough resources to meet demand yet. I can't hire an employee yet because I don't have the volume, and I can't afford to pay all the required benefits... So I am alone in this. The amount if work is getting to be too much for me to handle alone, but I can't afford to hire help, and my husband won't participate. I don't know what to do. I'm so stressed out and my thoughts often turn to suicide. I work so hard, run my business, and take care of all the housework, kids, etc. Then he comes home and says I've done nothing... I just wish it could be over.
Thank you for reading my little rant. I don't want anyone who knows me personally to figure out that I'm emotionally crippled.