Yeah you want to make plans with me?
I'm a happily newlyweds at 47. This year has been amazing. First time homeowner, just married to a great guy, gorgeous wedding, dress, diamonds. 5 bridesmaids came to be in my wedding from 5 different states. Day in and day out, I do meaningful work that I am good at and appreciated for. I'm a beloved, sister, auntie, daughter...
Low self esteem, yoyo weight loss and gain, history of struggles with disability issues that have negatively impacted my education and earlier career and earlier relationships.
As loving and wonderful as I am to others, when people ask to make plans with me I think their is something wrong with them. I feel repulsed by the fact that they actually want to ring in the new year with me.
Wanting to get over it but don't know how.