I'm a horrible wife.
On the day of my wedding last June I had s** with the guy I had been dating before I met my fiancé. He did me three times that day. Whenever I had broke up with him before that he told me he could come back whenever he wanted and do me and that I wouldn't stop him. I laughed at him then but then he showed up the morning of the wedding after not talking to me for like a year and he was right. I couldn't say no. I also haven't been able to say no since then whenever he comes back for more. I haven't told him no even once. Not once. I'm terrible but I can't help myself around the guy. It feels like my body was made just for his d***. And he knows that. I don't love him at all but I can't stay off him. My husband is the love of my life but he has no idea of what I'm doing. I hate myself for this.