Skipped the wedding
... I f***** up. After agreeing to be a brides maid, i ended up skipping the wedding. I called the bride the morning of the wedding and lied, telling her that I could not stop vomiting so I was going to the hospital. She figured out the truth a few months later. I ordered my dress very close to the wedding date due to strained finances and I gained weight - the dress did not fit and realized this the day before the wedding. I feel so stupid selfish and ugly. my suicidal thoughts are around a lot more often now. I sometimes feel like I would rather end it over dealing with the consequences of telling the truth. I'm sure the couple could give two s**** about me at this point.