To get away....

I wish I could just get away for a while to figure things out. I feel so torn all the time by people expecting things from me; expectations are crushing. I've lived my life trying to please my parents and I feel like every choice I've made I made with the thought of if they would approve or not. I don't feel like I know what I want and that's really frustrating. I'm dating a man I love but who doesn't fall into my parents category of acceptable because he is not religious. But am I religious? I don't know anymore. I don't know what or who I am. I feel like I'm trying to make everyone happy and in the process making myself miserable.