I'm sorry.

I cheated on you.
I'm sorry, and I'll never tell you. I love you, and I feel horrible.
But if I could go back in time I'd do it again.
It was nice having someone pay attention to me. It was nice not having someone say "I'm too busy for you, go away and maybe I'll spend time with you later, when it's more convenient for me."
It was snuggling afterwards. It was nice not having him get up instantly and say "I have things to do, so it's time for you to leave."
I told myself I'd never cheat, but I guess I knew I would all along. I was drunk, and that's not an excuse. I won't use it as one, but it made me realize how lonely I am. I guess all I needed was for someone attractive and charming to come up to me first.
Because I'm a sucker for feeling wanted.
I'm sorry.

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  • Dont b guilty u were neglected serves him right

  • Same situation. The guilt is eating me alive, but in a sense, I don't regret it. It was the first time in ages that I'd acted on what I wanted to do.

  • why don't u break up with him then?

  • I did the exact same thing, for the exact same reasons, you aren't alone at all :)
    It's good you knew it for what it was though :)

  • You need to upgrade. His inattention is making you do bad things.

  • I think you should talk to your bf about how you are feeling. Don't tell him about cheating though.

  • Good for you OP! I really mean that.
    Everybody deserves to be wanted for who they are, even if only for a moment.
    It's also very healthy for you to recognize it for what it was.

  • I guess you're right.

  • SSSSSSSSSLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUTTTTT!

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