He is married, I am married.
We wanted each other for months, one day I couldn't control myself we did it again, and again and again. I am in love and wait for him to meet me. I reject the others and left my husband because they are not him, it's almost a year now. Even though I know he goes home to his wife, who say's he will someday leave . I don't want our feeling to end. At the same time my heart is in knots and in so much pain when I cannot see him soon enough. He is many years older but good to me and loves on me in the most perfect way, the way I always wanted to be loved. and I love him so. I would never tell him, the feeling now is beautifully intense without saying "I Love You". I am tired of hurting my heart cramps and I am always so wet for him. I tried dating others to get over him but they are not as smart, as respectable, and open. With the others I dated I don't have that connection that prolongs our conversation and makes our visits fun and spontaneous. I do not desire others at all, I am
completely withdrawn from other men although I get hit on sometimes several times a day by nice good looking men.
I cannot leave him without feeling I have been somehow emotionally, sexually and intellectually disconnected from something rare. I tryto move on but he is too good to leave and pass up. Yet I don't want to marry him or anything. I just want to take things slow but he is still married. I'm afraid if I tell him I'll wait till he leaves her then he will get upset and I will loose him. It is also hard to go without f****** him for so long. Do I continue this relationship? I know I will hurt more without him.