Happy but sad?
I'm really happy now that I'm single. It feels good to be able to do whatever I want and go where ever I like with who ever I like. I enjoy the freedom and I pretty much don't have to worry about anything or anyone. I haven't really been single since I was about 15 and I'm 24 now. I had small breaks and by that I mean only weeks at a time in between boyfriends. This time it's been about 4 months since my ex and I broke up. I have so much fun now that I can actually go out and party without feeling guilty or getting bitched at. I was feeling pretty good about my new life until last night. I realized I was falling asleep alone and for some reason that hit me really hard. I forgot how nice it is to have someone next to you when your day is over with. Now I'm totally confused, but I think I'll get over it. I also found out my ex was dating someone new, who I actually know from a while back. She's completely unattractive and a terrible human being. She's a f****** coke addict for god sake. I think I'm pretty cute and I treated him like a king and for whatever reason I got treated like s*** and she gets treated like a princess. I definitely don't want a relationship at all, I guess I'm just feeling lonely and slightly upset over seeing how good he treats his cokewhore and being reminded of how horrible he was to me. I just don't get it.. :(