I can't get her out of my head
I am a 33 year old male and have been married to my second wife for five years. We met shortly after both of our previous marriages ended in divorce due to our ex-spouses' infidelity. I had a few short-term relationships and one-night stands while my ex and I were separated but she and I hit it off almost immediately. We shared much of the same values and interests and we each felt relieved that the other understood the pain caused by cheating and would never want to inflict that upon the other. However, I have noticed as time marches on my desire for intimacy with my wife has decreased. This is compounded by our attempts to have a child as it's difficult to keep from looking at s** as a chore at that point when you have to set your watch by the days of the month. Before I continue let me express that I am still deeply in love with my wife and could not imagine my life without her.
Skip ahead to last year. An attractive and quiet young woman hired on at my company and she and I became good friends in short order. As time progressed we've grown closer as we've found we share a lot of interests. Needless to say, my wife grew jealous and suspicious rather quickly and I did spend an evening talking my way out of the doghouse when I went to have drinks after work under the guise of a late shift. To ease her mind that nothing untoward was going on, I introduced the two of them and the three of us have been getting together at least weekly for dinner and drinks after work. Privately, this 24 year old woman and I have become very open with one another and I find I'm able to openly discuss topics with her that I do not feel comfortable discussing with my wife. When we met she was up front about her need for a wide personal space bubble and that she felt quite uncomfortable with contact from people she did not know well. I suppose we know each other well enough now as I get playful bumps and pokes from her when we're near each other in the office or outside of work and she does not shy away if I reciprocate. I now find myself fantasizing about her and waking from rather lewd dreams involving her. Being around her sparks not only sexual desire but also brightens my mood. When she talks about outings with friends I can't help but feel a tinge of jealousy. We chat constantly via text but even if it's an innuendo or raunchy joke, nothing has been directly related to any chemistry between us. She has sent me a few photos of herself but nothing erotic.
I just spent the afternoon with her, my wife and my sister-in-law which left me feeling empty after we parted ways and my wife and I headed home. She is 24 now, has never been in a long term relationship, has dated only briefly and is a virgin. I don't know that the opportunity for s** with this woman would ever arise as she's yet to appear flirty or receptive but I do not know how I would react if it did. I'm not sure if my infatuation with this woman would override my commitment to my wife. I'm wary to bluntly ask how she feels as I fear such an awkward question will have serious repercussions if she is not 'feeling it too'. I would certainly regret the deed if my wife were to ever find out but given how much this woman has driven me mad I suspect I would regret it as well if I did not jump at the chance as life is entirely too short to live full and 'what ifs'.