I fantssise about being hung by my wrists and whipped
Sometimes when I am stressed, I lie in bed at night and fantasise that I am hung up by my wrists and whipped. In the fantasy I am screaming out in pain from the hanging and then they start to whip me. Not hard as to tear skin but painful. I'm begging and pleading and crying all at the same time. Tears running down my cheeks.
Sometimes the fantasy involves being kidnapped and sometimes it's consensual and I stand on a box and put my hands up and they are tied and then the box is pulled out and the pain hits. sometimes I wet myself when I am screaming from the pain. Sometimes I am naked and sometimes I am clothed and sometimes they cut the clothes off me. All sorts of different versions.
I don't know how it ends. It's always the beginning and the whipping and the fantasy about the pain. In my shoulders and sides and arms. That's before they whip me.
A few times when I have been in the park, I will hang by my hands from the swing set or some other piece playground equipment but usually I can't even last a minute before I have to let go because my arms hurt. Yet I still have this fantasy even though I know it will be excruciating.
How dumb and weird is that.