I'm tired of being alive. I'm tired of feeling so many things, and nothing at all. I don't want to feel sad about so many crappy things in the world, knowing that things never truly are going to get better. I don't want to be a failure at life. I don't want to be alone forever. I don't want to see my family die around me while I watch helplessly.
I don't want to do this anymore... but I'm too much of a f****** coward to end it.