As I get older I have stopped being worried over things. I'm not old. I'm 36. I have been "curious" about s** with other men my whole life. Up until I was about 26, I would "experiment" and afterwards feel like it was something I shouldn't have done. Then something switched in my brain. I'm married to a good woman and I have a gay lover. She knows about it and she is cool with it. She wanted to share secrets and I told her that I had always been curious about having s** with another man. Not necessarily all the way, but oral. She told me that I should try it. So I did. It was with my neighbor. She doesn't ask for details but she knows that I go to his house after work once or twice a week for mutual oral. She's not big on giving head and my gay lover is.