My secret

I was mouth ** when i was 14 and it too messed me up!It was on my First Holy Communion day none the less,and i was dressed like the little girls in a poofy,short sleeve,knee length communion dress and veil with the lace anklets and white maryjane shoes and under my dress a white tee shirt with a cloth diaper and plastic pants just like the little girls wore.After my party,my parents took my relatives to the airport,so i was home alone.A few minutes,the 16 year old guy whom i had a crush on came and saw me in my outfit.We started talking for a few minutes,then to my surprise,he took me in his arms and started kissing me and i was very much lost in the moment! He discovered the cloth diaper and plastic pants under my dress and dropped his pants and under shorts,them pushed me to my knees and forced his ** into my mouth and forced me to ** it!Afew minutes later he came in my mouth and forced me to swallow his **! After he left,i felt very humiliated and angry at my self for letting the mouth ** happen! I havent trusted a guy since then!

Talk to someone about it, sweetie. Please. Release yourself.

9 or 10 would have been a better age

I know it might sound scary, but if you ever want to get over your emotional injuries then you should really go talk to someone, like a therapist. it makes sense that you don't trust anyone, especially men. I don't either, but I've never even been **. before you can get in a real relationship that will make you feel good again, you need to take care of yourself and talk to someone :)

sweety you'll be fine you need to talk to someone
let it all out that will make you feel A LOT better :P

I felt the same way after my dad did the same to me untill I met my husband now. I did not feel I could trust men. Whatever you do, don't give up. You will find someone. And don't listen to this a hole who writes in all caps.

have you ever told ANYONE (besides us) abotu the **? I think you should because you need to get that out in the open and deal with your sexual issues that circle around the **. I can understand, though, I have been ** as well. I didn't tell anyone, and ended up being promiscuos through out highschool. Do you know what made me feel better? The same guy (that I never told anyone about) was arrested 2 years later for **. I didn't tell cause I figured no one would believe me, and i was kind of "leading him on" at that party. Only later in my life did I realize that those feelings are completely normal to have after being violated. I have since talked to my mom, my boyfriend, and my sisters about what happened to me. It felt ** good to look at his mugshot, and say to myself, that guy got what he deserved, he ** me. Well, I love the girl who told even though I don't know her. I know she saved many other girls from being scarred and damagedfrom him. . .I only wish I had had the courage to save her.

^ Lame.

COME SEE ME **, SUPER E-THUG **..
WHAT?!?
** THAT ** I HOPE SHE CONTINUES TO GET ** SO THAT SHE CAN KILL HERSELF.
ONE LESS WORTHLESS PIECE OF ** IN THE WORLD LIKE YOUR MOM!

** yo u are real rude how the heck u could leave that comment to her like that........u shut the fucc up........wowo i wish i knew who u was ...i wouldve puch ur face already

^ Dude, you are one of the worst trolls I've ever seen.
That's just plain lame.

SHUT THE ** UP AND DIE ALREADY **, YOU PROBABLY DESERVED TO BE **!

Interesting name - are you Icelandic or Swedish or something?

theres no need to lie! why do thay need to know weather you have or not yourve got nothing to be ashamed of!
i know were you coming from when you say you dont trust no one but you gotta remember that ** hole that ** you isnt worth nothing! your worth 1000 more, i know its hard but try and forget it ever happend your as oure as you want to be!!! and one day you will find that specile someone that you will love and make love to and you will beable to trust, and there treat you right and will take the bad memorys away, trust me it happened to me!