Regret of parenthood
I have one child and I hate having her around. My mother never played with me or taught me anything so I have no idea what to do. the pregnancy was a f****** mistake. I'm a lesbian and I just wanted to make sure I didn't like guys. my family had been telling me I was gonna burn in h*** since I was 9 and it led me to make the idiotic decision of sleeping with a guy even though I find them f****** disgusting. I saved money for an abortion but was a few dollars short. my mother promised to lend me the money and then bailed on me at the last minute... said I'd thank her for it. 9 years later and all I wanna do is go to her house and kill her. got tricked into going to a for profit college and I'm over $30,000 in debt. The irs takes my income tax so I can never save for anything. my mother is an abusive Jesus freak and would turn my daughter into a self-hating African because she grew up in the time of segregation and still wishes she was f****** white. she tells my daughter her hair is bad unless it's straight. My wife is another child I have to raise. her and my daughter are constantly fighting,and putting me in the middle. I can't work a decent set of hours because I have no one to watch my child. A****** drives wrecked my car on the interstate so I have no personal transportation in a city where you have to f****** speak Spanish for every g****** job while simultaneously looking like Taylor Swift to get hired. I hate talking to my daughter because she's always f****** lying or repeating the same Bullshit 10 to 15 times in a row like no one heard it the first f****** time. I'm on f****** foodstamps which I F****** Hate! my in laws barely speak any f****** English, so hanging out with them is a real f****** annoyance. I have no family because my mother made sure to keep me away from everyone and it seems all the people my age in this city are criminals, whores, or addicts. I sometimes wish we would get in a car accident and my daughter would die so I can start over in life or drive myself to suicide with grief. adoption is definitely out because I couldn't handle it of she was raped in foster care or by her "new family" and I don't want to answer the why did you give me away questions. I just want her f****** gone.