I think I've given up
My heart doesn't want to accept or let anyone in my life. I'm kind of confused about whether I ever want to be with someone or not because I literally have no feelings about anyone. I'm guessing I like to stay single. It's not even my heart, it's like my brain has taken over my heart. All of my decisions are being made through brain. When it comes to the matter of heart, it shuts down. I don't care about how much I'm being liked or even loved. I'm so tired. My heart is extremely tired. It doesn't want to do anything. I have major trust issues and it has lead me to not give anyone even a half chance to prove themselves. I think I'd given up. I really don't seem to want to be with anyone. My heart is just numb from all these experiences or maybe because I sacrifice all the good people a lot for others' selfish reasons. I guess I'm tired of fighting for what I deserve. When they tell me that they're leaving and will never see me again, I just stay here read their message and let it go. My heart is too tired to feel any emotion.