Push Me to the Other Side
For a long time I have considered myself a straight male. But I have occasionally watched gay p*** and been tempted by it. Recently I have started experimenting with toys & fingers and enjoyed the sensation but can't focus enough whilst masturbating.
I really want to find an older man who can be my friend and go out for drinks with me then take advantage of me when I'm drunk. The idea of pretending to be too intoxicated to stop him gets me hard several times a day. I am too scared to try and find someone because there are so many crazy people out there now but I wish someone could force me to accept what I really want..