I hate myself - I only like white women (minority myself)
Hello, I needed to get this out. I consider most white people to be racist, and I dont like them because of their racism and hatred. For some messed up reason I love white women. If a white woman comes up to me and wants to date, I dont think I can turn her down. I want to date them, marry them, have many kids with them, have white babies with them, the whole nine yards. Even my p*** search now is white woman only, I cannot stop thinking about impregnating them.
I even think about impregnating an older white woman (at her 50!!!) and I dont care. I dont know what is wrong with me. My family will definitely not like if I start dating or even marry a white woman, but I cannot stop myself. If a blonde, blue eyed woman comes up and she wants to date and marry, I dont think I can control myself.
I am young guy in his 20s, minority, and the only thing in my mind is being with white women only. What is wrong with me.
Can anyone advise or if others go through this thoughts?