I am contemplating suicide.
I look at how screwed over the world is and I realise that actually, the dreams and thing that I have, are most likely not going to come to anything. I want to go into medicine in university, but it costs much more money than I'll ever be able to pay for at that point in my life and my parents will most likely not be able to pay for me without having money issues. I want to have friends and great experiences, but really, even if I do have great experiences and wonderful friends, it won't mean anything because the world is probably going to be torn apart by war and such-like within my lifetime.
I don't want to have kids or have any kind of romantic relationship with anyone. I hate children and, whilst I do have romantic attractions to people, I reject the idea of having a single partner.
I don't want to grow up just to have everything mean nothing. It seems better to me just to end my life now when I'm still young and the world still has nice sunny days.