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Herve B-Rectification of previous share done on Thu 9th June 2009
Hi. This is Herve. B . Today 25/04/2017. I deleted the last post And thought It was better to share in more concise and simple form. I wanted to take the courage to tell the truth about this post shared on the net on Thursday 4th June 2009 and this confession site that I thought was private and safe at that time 8 years back. In fact, I want to bring inside out that this post that I only remember I shared it by mistake as I didnt know if it would appear on the net like that and I thought the website of confessionpost.com was private and restricted to its user and secured. I have to admit I had passed through some state of depression at some extent at that time and I was feeling lonely a bit and needed to talk to someone to find ways to be able to get solution to be freed from ** of my addiction temptations that come from time to time for my gambling and ** and a bit of stress and difficulties I was having at that time.Honestly I shared what I shared to only do the confession and get freed from some thoughts I had. And I remember it worked that day and I stayed sober that day. But Simply what I want simply to bring forward is that I continued to be in fellowship of 12 step even via online meetings and skype meetings for different fellowships of 12 step simply to seek sobriety and live a better and more honest life without the addiction of gambling and **. I have managed to have open meetings and phone meetings also via NJ GA and I have been able to stay free from gambling that is I didnt gamble any rupee since actually the 10th August 2015 til today that is exactly 1 year,8 months and 11 days that is 620 days. Now I want to share I have managed to enter the SA online fellowship only since 2014 and in the 2009 I only tried some few meetings but then the meetings stopped themselves. And I have managed by working with sponsors to be guided to the principles of the program to simply have some specific tools and cut off places of lusst and when an object of ** i may be attracted to, I do simple prayers written in the SA white book, God bless her and put blessings in her life only in my heart and mind nothing else. But being a loner here in my country and passed the message to some other lusstaholic who told me they also suffer from lusst which is one among the 7 deadly sins explained in the Roman Catholic Church. However in all religions there are scriptures about purification of the soul and we dont become Gods in this program but we just seek to work on sobriety each day.Concerning my resentments I have to say when I worked the SA program and I have been able to go definitely more family dinners and to continue by grace of God to be at service to family members and others. And I sincerely apologise for having shared resentments towards some members of my family. The SA sobriety definition in the Sa white book states that whether for a man and a woman,that person has to stay sober having no ** with thyself and anyone else apart being married to a spouse which correlates to the law of God in the holy books. Thus I have managed to stay sober for different periods of time that is I had for 46 days,then 40 days,then 26 days,then 20 days then weeks and days at several periods over 2 years since I joined SA online and Im just continuing to work on my sobriety and stay in touch with sober members who have many years some 40 even and some months or weeks or days but we are all united in the Spirit of More Purity and More Honesty.12 step is basically composed of 12 steps and 12 traditions and is about admitting one own wrong,make amend wherever possible,learn to forgive others and let Go let God and pray for others and let go and let God do his will and justice not mine about what others cause me wrong. in fact SA has been founded by Roy K who was born in 1927 and he founded SA in 1997 and Roy K died from cancer on the afternoon of September 15, 2009. He had been sexually sober since January 31, 1976. Unfortunately There is no fellowship here face to face but im doing my best to continue the program although I had also some different health issues. Now I don't know who are those people who like to type my name and make research on me but Im powerless and Only God is powerful over all and I surrender my powerlessness to God.The importance I am bringing out the truth since all those years and I just hope I can continue my path in recovery and have the chance to continue work the program to take care of myself as per God's will because I have learned that for human beings there are no bad or perfect people,we are just sick at some extent wanting just to get well and only the Higher Power is perfect. There are people who simply dont want and need to be in fellowship. That is their choice,I cannot force others to be in fellowship if they dont want.Each one sees what is best for him and her. It would have been best if this program was available in each and every community or the Big Institutions Churches , Temples.Mosques etc joined together to include a way to those ONLY seeking sobriety have this opportunity. But Acceptance is the key. Just sharing a prayer that I like in the SA white book and Im sharing simply the truth people like or not or believe or not. I know Im doing my best to be honest and truthful To God,myself and others. There are also other fellowship I have possibility to attend if I want like Food Addict,Alanon, Dual Recovery Fellowships.
The 3rd Step PrayerThe Third Step Prayer
from page 63 of the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous
God, I offer myself to Thee-
To build with me
and to do with me as Thou wilt.
Relieve me of the ** of self,
that I may better do Thy will.
Take away my difficulties,
that victory over them may bear witness
to those I would help of Thy Power,
Thy Love, and Thy Way of life.
May I do Thy will always!
Copyright © Alcoholics Anonymous World Services, Inc.
And the Serenity Prayer
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
May God bless us all on the path of saner life.
You call that concise? Couldn't even get through it! Try again, loser.
You talk too much 😠😡🙄😕😴