Ive liked this girl for a year now and she just started having feelings for me. i asked her out by setting my contact as "will you be my girlfriend?:)" on her phone and called her. i came around the corner and she said "yes!". i have never met anyone like her and love her so much. i went out with her last night and met her parents and i talked to her dad more than i talked to her. it was good. i needed to meet them to make this work. i'm so afraid i will show her how i actually feel and she will be scared. she is my favorite person in the world. she does not have the same amount of passion for me as i have for her. it may be that i just need someone to show my affection to or it may be i just love her that much. but i think about it all the time. i know it's going to happen. we won't stay together forever. i hate myself. i should have killed myself last year when i had the chance and wasn't afraid. i'm putting myself through all of this bullshit. i need her but she does not need me. when i think about her i get happy but i get sad because i want to be with her forever but i know it won't happen. i need someone to talk to. ugh i need help.