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I don't belong here
I don't belong in this world. I have -always- found it difficult with women. While I have had relationships - and I have had one seriously long term (living together for years, prospect of marriage) - I have never quite been able to shake the feeling of not fitting in on this area. All of the (three) relationships I have been in have been established when I pretended to be something I'm not. Aggressive, dominant and degrading.
To the very core of my personality, I am a good and kind person, with a strong sense of fairness. And nothing angers me more than people mis-treating others. Like the typical alpha males do when they go searching for people to have ** with.
I just. Can't. Do. it. Eventhough I know women are biologically wired to like dominance. I think maybe I watched too many disney movies when I was a kid. I am way too talented in the romantic attention area for pretty much anyone my gender. Primarily because when I was a kid, everything I was always told about what women want, and thus it was something I carefully considered - and planned to be as great a boyfriend/husband to my future partner, as I could be.
Basically I know exactly and precisely what I need to do, to advance in my romantic life. But I feel like that would be equivalent of searching for the corners in a round building. I know what it is, and what it looks like - but it would damage the structure of my personality.
I'm fairly bright. So my logical conclusion has been that it's basic evolution theory. I'm different. Sometimes that's really good. Sometimes it doesn't work out in spite of that. While I am happy and would never 'end it', I sometimes think it would have been easier if nature would be quicker about solving the problem...
Oh and in case it holds meaning to anyone reading this, I have eliminated most of the reasons as to why the love-department of life doesn't work out for me.
I have a well respected master's degree, a well paying job with not too many weekly hours, I'm average looking, definitely not scaring people away with trying too hard and I am decent enough with making extremely close friendship connections - so it's not because I am overly weird. My best friends are women. A few of them considered very attractive as well.
I wish I lived in a world where there were more women who sought after what the commercials and romantic movies tell you they do.
I don't blame women at all btw. You like who you like. But I sure wish the world was different.
Male, 29.
Be yourself with perspective dating partners, don't pretend to be anything other than yourself! Everyone is different and there's individuals that are women, who would love nd cherish a person like you in their lives. I have a lovely boyfriend of eight and a half years, with similar qualities like yours and I cherish him deadly. You'll find that special someone one day, that is the other half to your soul. Sometimes it takes time.
It's not that I don't belong where I am. I don't belong anywhere.
>>definitely not scaring people away with trying too hard
Rethink that before leaving such an overdramatic comment, OP. It's obvious what your problem is, but you're too full of yourself to see it.
I hear you, I don't belong where I am either.