WHEN YOU GIVE EVERYTHHING

MY WIFE HAS BEEN DISTANT LATELY,IVE BEEN FOLLOWING HER FOR SOME TIME LATELY ON THE WEEKENSS. IM A REALTOR SO IM NEVER HOME WEEKENDS ARE WHEN MY CLIENTS WANT OPEN HOUSES. I FOLLOWED MY WIFE TO A LONG DRIVE HALF HOUR WHERE WE LIVE. OUTSIDE CAME A MAN WHO HUGGED, KISSED MY WIFE WITH PASSION. WE HAD THAT AT ONE POINT. BEEN MARRIED FOR 4YEARS. SHE HAS IT ALL LIVES DECENT, DOESNT WORK. YOU GIVE YOUR ALL TO ONE WOMAN AND THERE SHE GOES ** SOME MAN WHOS A STRANGER AND HAS A FAMILY WITH ANOTHER WOMAN. HE TAKES YOUR WIFE OUT ON DATES THEY HAVE INTIMACY IN THE VEHICLE I BOUGHT MY WIFE. THERE GO THE EXCUSES FOR "IM AT MY MOMS HOUSE" OH BTW WE DONT HAVE KIDS. HAVENT BEEN INTIMATE FOR 4 MONTHS NOW. EVERYTIME I COME TO HER SHE REJECTS ME WE HURT! ME AND HIM ARE HURT! I SONT GET IT WHERE DID I GO WRONG??!? I BUSTED MY ** OF TO HAVE WHAT SHE HAS, SPENT TIME IN SCHOOL TO ACE THE REALTOR TESTS, SPENT TIME NETWORKING TO GIVE IT ALL TO HER. SHES THE ONE I WANTED TO HAVE A FAMILY WITH. WHERE DID I GO WRONG? AM I SMALL DOWN THERE HES PRETTTY VASCULAR I TAKE CARE OF MYSELF IM HEALTHY I WORK I HAVE A CAREER. YOU GIVE WOMAN YOUR ALL AND THERE THEY GO ** UP WHAT YOU THOUGHT YOU HAD. MY RING COMES OFF. VOWS ARE BROKEN. SILENCE IS DEATH. TEARS HURT. I CHOKE UP. WHEN I GET HOME FROM WORK SHE TRIES TO KISS ME AND ASK HOW WORK WAS MY ANGER AND MY HEART IS RACING. IM READY TO EXPLODE AND CHOKE THIS **. I WALK UPSTAIRS AND PACK UP HER STUFF. THERE I AM SHIRTLESS INSECURE HURT BRINGING HER BAGGAGE TO THE DOOR. NO EXPLANATIONS NO SORRY NO WHATS GOING ON. SHE KNOWS WHAT SHE DID THE SILENCE NEVER SOUNDED SO BETTER. SHE GRABS HER BAGGAGE CALLS A UBER AND LEAVES. BUT HERE I AM OVERTHINKING BEATING UP MYSELF PLANNING OUR ANNIVERSARY EXCITED TO GET HOME TO HER. HERE I AM REGRETTING MARRYING THIS WOMAN. WHEN IN FACT I LOVED MY EX WITH ALL I COULD, BUT SHE HAD A BABY WITH ANOTHER MAN WHILE WE TOOK TIME OFF. THE DUDE LEFT HER AND THERE I WAS WALKING AWAY FROM OUR LOVE TO MARRY THIS ** WHO I THOUGHT LOVED ME. WHAT IF I WOULDVE MARRIED MY EX. WOULD SHE BE LOYAL. WOULD SHE BE LIKE HER. HOW WOULD HER LOVE , HUGS &KISSES FEEL AT NIGHT. WHEN WE HAVE INTIMACY HOW WOULD SHE LIKE IT. WOULD SHE BE DIFFERENT AND NOT LET ME OULL OUT. WOULD SHE REJECT ME. WOULD SHE SNEAK OUT TO ** WILHILE ID BE WORKING. I COULDVE TAKEN WELL CARE OF HER AND THAT CHILD I WOULD BE THAT CHILDS FATHER. WE'D BE HAPPY. THIS RING MEANS NOTHING NOW. HERE I SIT ALONE IN THIS EMPTY HOME. NOW IS WHERE I RETHINK MY WHOLE LIFE. SHE DIDNT LOVE ME TO BEGIN WITH. WHY PLAY ALONG. WHY NOT JUST LEAVE AND ADMIT IM NOT THE ONE YOU WANTED, BUT YOU JUST COUDLNT HANDLE SEEING ME HAPPY WITH MY EX. BEVER TRUST A WOMAN WITH A BRIGHT SMILE AND COLORED EYES. I MARRIED A MONSTER. I SHALL FIND MY EX AND RECCONECT. BUT HOW,... SHE WAS THE ONE I WANTED. IT MAKES SENSE,... GET TO KNOW THE PERSON BEFORE YOU MARRY. THAT WAS MY MISTAKE I WAS FOOLED BY BEAUTY AND WAS CONTENT WITH A FAT ** BUT I COULDNT FIND THE RIGHT SIDE TO HER. SHE DESTROYED ME JUST TO SAY SHE ** THAT ONE REALTOR DUDE EVERYONE KNOWS. MAYBE ALL MY DUDES ** MY WIFE AND I MIGHT NOT KNOW. ** MARRIAGE&a THIS **. GIVE ME THE RING BACK, THE KEYS TO THE CAR I PAID FOR. MATTER OF FACT I RUN DOWNSTAIRS CATCH HER BEFORE UNER DRIVER LEAVES, SHES THINKING IM COMING BACK FOR HER, HER HEAD IS DOWN TEARS FALL, BUT DO THOSE TEARS MEAN ANYTHING? I TAKE OUT THE BAGS FROM THE UBER AND AHE LIGHTS UP "CAN WE TALK"? I PROCEED TO UNLOAD HER BAGS WITH EXPENSIVE TASTE SHE HAS FROM SHOES TO DRESSES TO PURSES. I LOOK HER IN HER EYES SHE HANDS THE RING , "NO WE CANT TALK BUT THESE BAGS AND I WILL TALK UPSTAIRS, GIVE ME YOUR HEELS TOO I YELL! SHE HANDS THE RING AND HANDS OVER HER HEELS. "THE PHONE" SHE HESITATES... "THIS WHAT IM TAKING IS MY HARD WORK, " FIND HARDWORK ELSEWHERE YOU DONT DESERVE IT. NOW WDF IS A 27 yr OLD MAN GOING TO DO WITH HEELS, DRESSES&a BAGS WORTH THOUSANDS OF DOLLARS. DONATE. DAYS TURN TO SECONDS. MINUTES TO MONTHS. MONTHS TO NIGHTS. IM OVER HER. I SLOWLY BEGIN TO NOTICE THE WORLD AROUND ME THINGS ABOUT MYSELF I NEVER NOTICED. I WAS TOO CAUGHT UP IN MY DAY AND WORK THAT EVERYTHIG ELSE WAS NEVER THERE. TAKE TIME OFF TO REMODEL MY HOME. I START A DATING APP. HOP ON FB AND LOOK UP MY PAST BY A CLICK AWAY THERE SHE IS. NEAR ME SAME CITY SAME STATE. THERE IS HER SON. SHE LOOKS THE SAME BEAUTIFUL MY HEART STILL RACES MY PALMS SWEAT. BUTTERFLIES OVER LAP OF THE THOUGHT OF HER VOICE. NEW FURNITURE. NEW PAINT. THIS IS ME. A FEW CLICKS AWAY SHE REPLIES WE MEET UP,.. WE CATCH UP. SHE INQUIRES ABOUT MY MARRIAGE I EXPLAIN THE DIVORCE IS FILED. I LOVED MY EX ALL ALONG. THE REST IS OUR FUTURE. IM HAPPIER. TAKING THINGS SLOWLY. DONT GET SOAKED IN YOUR ROUTINES. UNDERSTAND AND NOTICE HOW YOUR WIFE OR HUSBAND ACT UP. KNOW THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN THE OLD LOVE AND NEW LOVE. BE HAPPY. I SHOULDVE KNOWN ALL ALONG, MY EX NEVER HAD A MAN AFTER ME. SOON SHE WILL BE MINE.