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I am married to a beautiful woman and we have s** often but every spare second a sneak off to peep shows how r gay areas where I get used At the peep show I let them come in my booth and do anything to me. The patrons call me she and her and take me how they want Sometimes a few at a time. While they do they refer me as girly. Some slap and hit me while they do me. Rape me from behind

One man makes me leave the booth and get on my knees and stay there He makes me give oral to anyone that wants it and they pay him in booth tokens to finish in my mouth
I have had up to 10 men and n a row finish that way

I also go to a quiet road that is a gay hangout. One man pulls me into the woods and takes me from behind and just walks away when done leaving me on all fours
Another sits in his car and makes me stand outside while I strip while he takes care of himself. I can't stop going

Jul 24, 2017

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  • I want to eff you. Right now. I want to eff you sooooooo effing hard. G******! Everything you do and write just makes me want to eff you. And do you know what? I think you need to be effed.

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  • Christ, all the things you do are sexy. Every single thing, just sexy as all h***. Jesus!

  • I would love to f*** you in front of all those other men. I would ruin you.

  • You writing this gets me so hard. I wish you could. F me so hard and hurt me so I will feel the pain for days and remember how good you took me and finished inside me like I'm your w**** and nothing more

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  • Good. Make me cry. That's so hot. Make me your slave and ruin me. Hurt me. Don't tell my wife. Make me go home and be with her and dream and know inside I am owned by you. Make me go sleep next to her with your come still inside me.
    Make me scrub your floors on my knees then take me like a little b**** then send me home. Please
    I am so strong. I have a great athletic body but I will be your little b**** There to just please you

  • You have a sweet and wonderful attitude. Please don't ever change. I will make you cry, I will pound you furiously, and I will lend you to some of the most depraved homos you have ever encountered. The f******* you will take will be brutal, and you will cry, but you will love them all. And then you will love me, when I f*** you better. You w****. You miserable f****** w****! You have never known, and will never know, happiness like this.

  • Yes please make me want you.

  • The best thing about me is that I have a really thick c***, more than enough to gag you every time I feed it to you, and more than enough to rip your precious a*** every time I enter you. And I think you already know how often those things will happen. Each time we're together, when I'm done with you, you will not be able to remember your wife's name: that's how ruined you will be. You -- and your body -- will belong to me.

  • The second best thing about me is that when I c**, I produce massive quantities of cream. When I allow you to return home to your wife, you'll be covered in my spume, and it will be leaking from your ass for hours. You'll be an unbelievable mess, and you'll think you are in heaven . . . because that's where you'll be. When you belong to me, you are in heaven.

  • The third best thing about me is that I know a lot of really filthy homos, so when you're hungering for one of the gang rapes you seem to enjoy, I can quickly and easily arrange that. You'll be filled with d****, and then you'll be drowning in c**. You will worship me. Constantly. Worship.

  • To get bent over and taken in front of me hem is incredible. I listen to their comments while I get rammed. They don't talk to me just about me. They will say it's hot or f him good or look she loves it. Sometimes they rub me or will slap my cheek
    Last week the man made me kneel outside the booth again and charged people a token each to come in my mouth. I was so used one after another. 5 times I went strait home and collapsed on my bed didn't even shower
    Then my wife kissed me goodnight

  • The abuses you receive in the name of love are a thing of beauty, and the love you give in return is perfect and pure. I doubt that many of the men you encounter really understand how wonderful you are, or how lucky they are to have you servicing them, giving them release, and giving them your love. I know you are a sensual individual (as well as a sexual one), but you are also an intellectual and artful one. Your writing is astonishingly good. I stop by this page multiple times each day, hoping to find a new post from you, and a new thought or occurrence or image from your love life. But whether or not something new appears, I m********* each and every time. I think of you and fantasize about the lover you must be, and then I think of how hard I would work to make you happy, and what a blessing it would be to have you in my life. I would honor your marriage (perhaps even befriending your wife, but without telling her of our passion for each other or the filthy ways we express it), I would go to the bookstore, the peepshow, the gay bars, the truck stops, the parks and the woods with you, and we would always be searching for new ways in which you can share your love. And every time I think of all that, I erupt -- volcanically -- as if I were in your ass. And then, when I think of you inside mine, I erupt again. I truly love you. And I thank you for sharing yourself with us here. Please don't stop pleasing men, and please don't stop writing about it. Yes, I love you, but I also need you.

  • You are just too f****** hot for words. There are a lot of good words here, but not enough to describe how hot and sexy and wonderful you are.

  • I love it when you let yourself get raped. And I love you, too, when you let yourself get raped. That is just so beautiful.

  • F*** me...

  • You know I will. You KNOW that.

  • OMMFG, I want your d*** in me.

  • I know you have mad skills at taking care of men. But I swear that if you and I were together, it would be me always taking care of you. Because you so totally deserve that. And more.

  • ...amazng sexuallity ..

  • Swear to god everytime i read this page from you it makes me c** in buckets i just cannot help jacking it like a madman......wish i could jack you.....wish i could feel you.....wish i could taste you......wish i could give myself to you.....wish i could please you......wish i could make you happy.....

  • Last night I went to the adult book store. Nobody was there exept one old guy so I left. I was so let down. Going back tonight. Hopefully there is someone that will take me from behind and rip me apart.
    There used to be a biker that would make me suck him for hours. He would pull me to my feet and punch me and slap my dk. So hard and push me down again. He would rap his belt around my neck and tighten while I took him in. I would be totally used. When I would make love to my wife after I would do her soooo. Good. Give it like I got it

  • Except

  • I love it when you go to the bookstore. It seems you get used better there.

  • I really hope that your next trip proved more productive and more beneficial. I can really feel how badly you ache for the kind of love you get at the bookstore. You describe the longing so beautifully, and then you describe the action so sensually. Your readership can really feel what you feel. Please stay with us......and keep us up to date.

  • I cannot begin to imagine howgood you are at oral s**.you really mustbe incredible. jesus. god help us all.

  • Hot AF

  • It's double that. At least.

  • I live a duel s** life. Saturday night I dominated my wife in bed. She likes to turn me down and then force her. We went for a while. I tossed her around and did anything I wanted till she came. And hard. Then I pulled out and didn't c** and told her I won't give her my c**. She loves that.
    Yesterday went to the gay hangout and pulled over and jumped in a contractors truck. It's high enough for him to stand. He was average but his head was so big it filled my mouth. He clasped his hands around my head and did my mouth good. When he finished he slid the door open and I left. As I got out a 4 wheel jeep pulled up and the guy got out and walked to the back. I followed and went down. Only took one minute for him. That is my weekend.

  • ....oh baby baby my baby.............. you really do your men good dont you. all of them. you do them so m************ love them all don't you. real true love. each one of them don't you? when you described the contractor I could feel the head of his d*** in my mouth ...... i could actually feel it go past my lips and come to rest on my tongue...... oh f*** oh f*** ! i could feel the heat of it and the girth of it...... i could actually taste the precum starting to form on the tip of his meat ..... arousal so pure .. so pure ........just before he "did my mouth good". i could feel him pounding ...... hammering ....... nailing my mouth because thats what a contractor does right? isnt that a contractor for you??? but the best was how quick you gave your jeep guy what he needed..... sweet jesus oh f*** sweet jesus...... your mouth just MUST be a magic place...... your mouth must be heaven ! is it? is your mouth heaven?????? is that why your so popular at the peep show??????? is that why men line up to get at you?????????? it is isnt it??????????????? i love they way you write baby...i love the way you love all your men.....and oh yes my sweet baby... i love you. i wish i belonged to you.....

  • The taste of the pre. Was so good. And being on my knees in the back of the truck with tool boxes all around and him telling me to suck it and how good it felt. So intense. I did my wife last night till she came hard but it is not anything like the intensity I had in that truck

  • God, I know just what you mean. F****** our wives is lovely, but it isn't fulfilling, is it? It doesn't "fill us up", right? That contractor knew just what you needed, no? He knew you needed him to take charge, to take control, to take over. You gave him what he needed, yes, of course; but he gave it right back. That's love. Mutual and complete. You must go back to him. You must find him again. I hope the two of you exchanged phone numbers, and that you will see each other regularly. You need to get back in that truck. You need it bad. Go get it. And go give it.

  • I can't beat that

  • LOL!!

  • ...... i would love to be the man who gives you the beatings you want........the beatings you crave ........ .... the beatings you need .....the beatings you deserve ......

  • Just thought I would point out that the OP used the word "beta" in his caption, and "beta" is an anagram for "beat". Coincidence? Perhaps not.

  • Soooooo sexy.

  • ^Agreed^.

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