I'm 14 years old...
I say I hate when people give me attention. I tell people don't pay attention to me. really, I love attention. half the things I do are so people can notice me.
I'm an attention w****.
I hate my bestfriend. she's way too pretty, and she steals every guy i like. I think she's a s***, but I'm too scared to tell her. I'm also p***** off at her boyfriend. he's stealing her from me. She makes plans with me, and then ditches me for him.
I'm a jealous b****.
I make people think I'm naturally happy, everyone thinks I'm the sweetest thing. I get myself out of everything. I make people believe I don't like drugs. and I can quit whenever I want.
I'm a good liar.
I think i'm a s***. I've cheated on 3 of my boyfriends. I promise myself I will never do it again. I tell myself it's because I get tired of boys easily. really, it's because they're gunna hurt me anyways. why not hurt them first?
I'm a cheater.
I'm a black girl, pretending like she's white. all of my friends are racist, but I tell them I don't care when they make racial jokes.
I say I hate talking about myself. just so people can say, why? I truely love talking about myself, it boosts my self esteem, which I quite frankly don't have.
I truely envy people who are vegetarians. but, I also envy people who have the courage to have eating disorders. I envy people who are all for "go green." I also envy people who are brave enough to steal.
I'm envious of the wrong things.
I blame everyone else for my unhappiness.
I want to believe that god listens to everyone's prayers. but, why doesn't he ever answer mine? I want to believe the world will change, but why hasn't it yet? I want to believe that all people have good in them, but why haven't they showed me it?
I'm a nonbeliever.
I look in the mirror everyday, and basically scream at it. when I walk around, I hide behind my hands because I get nervous around people. I wish I had the willpower to have an eating disorder. I love so many people, because I figure if I love them, they'll love me back. I don't think I know what love feels like. I say i'm outgoing, but I'm actually very shy on the inside. I talk way to much about myself. I wish I could kill myself. but, I'm scared i'll go to h***. I wish I was happy.
I'm very self conscience.
I'm 14 years old.
I'm too young to be having all of these problems.