Desires that I should not have
I have a strong physical and sexual attraction to one of my friend's dogs. For some reason her sleek form just sets my mind buzzing like if I was looking at someone I found really attractive. It's honestly pretty disturbing to myself.
I never have had any sort of sexual contact with an animal and nor will I since not only is it illegal but it is also unethical since animals can't give consent the same way a human can.
I have had these feelings for my friend's dog for a while now, but I have actively avoided going to his house because of them, they make me feel distinctly uncomfortable when with other people and his dog, I feel ashamed and kind of disgusted with myself. I've never felt like this about another animal.
I want to tell someone professional who can help me work through these feelings, but I don't want to be locked in a mental institute, which I feel is a very real possibility.