Cheating

This has only happened maybe 10 times in the 18 years that Larry and I have been married but there are times that I have this overwhelming urge to have exciting ** and after awhile ** with my husband had become more or less once or twice a week and I have a healthy ** drive .
I first considered one of our friends but I was afraid that it would sooner or later be found out so since I was a housewife at the time I would sneak away when the kids were in school and find a cowboy bar and let myself get picked up by a guy and go home with him for a couple hours.
I have been on birth control since our third chills so I had no problem with a guy finishing up in me and I would go home afterward and shower and ** using the guys sperm for a lube. ( I never have had an ** with any of the guys I have been with so far) and I know that Larry will probably just go to sleep after dinner watching the news .
It has worked very well up until now and for some reason since we have been on lockdown I am ** all the time. Larry has become a little mor active in bed but what I miss is the excitement of meting complete strangers and having wild **.
I will be very happy when Larry is called back to work and the kids are in school again.

I know this is wrong but how can something this exciting be wrong.
I also know that Larry might someday find out but I just cant seam to bring myself to stop.